Out the window

So much for what I wrote in my last post. I chucked most of it right out the window and did the opposite. I went out and bought another pack of smokes. Should have known I couldn't do it quite yet. So now my hope is that I can get through at least 48 hours, starting on Wednesday. I booked a non-smoking room and about the only place to smoke in Chicago is outdoors, so I won't have much opportunity to light up. If I can just make it through that first 48 hours, I'll be able to quit.

I also got myself a cellphone. I was just sitting there while they fixed the kiddie's and asked what the cheapest phone they had was. At first the guy said he could get me a $30 one with a $30 mail-in rebate. I asked why would I want to pay $30 now just to have it refunded later? That's really stupid. So he gave me the phone. It's probably the cheapest Nokia on the market, but I don't need much. I just wanted something small enough to carry in my pocket since I don't bother with a purse.

Luckily I don't have to pay the monthly bill either, cuz we just added a line onto my ex's account, with his approval of course. Figure I won't be using it much, maybe once or twice a week, so it wasn't worth it for me to get my own account. Plus the calls to the kiddie and ex are free, so I probably won't even use up any of their minutes.

I feel like crap today. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until tomorrow. The kiddie left a little while ago to hang out with her dad for a bit so I don't have to worry about her bugging me, saying she's bored. Maybe I'll put on a movie and crash on the couch. I rented History of Violence and I guess now would be a good time to watch it since it's rated R.