Need to be manic

I'm a pdoc's worst nightmare. Not only do I stockpile meds, but I also self-medicate. Luckily I haven't seen my pdoc in awhile and I don't really have plans to make an appointment for at least another month, maybe two. If he knew what I was doing with my meds, he'd probably lock me up.

I've been feeling very sick the last few days, like I'm coming down with the flu. I was already spending a lot of time in bed because I had no energy, but that just made it all the more worse. So I started brainstorming to figure out what I could do to have more energy. Then it hits me, I need to be manic. What is the only sure fire way to accomplish that? Take the Abilify I saved away since that is the effect it had on me when I first took it.

So I started taking it two days ago. Sure enough, I may still feel like shit, but my need to keep moving, to keep doing has been sparked. Today I managed to balance my checkbook, pay my bills, send a letter to my bankruptcy attorney, make an appointment to get the physical the kiddie needs before school starts, apply for the free/reduced lunch program at school, color my hair, clean half the bathroom and clean off part of my desk. That's more than I've done in the last month.

I know by next week I'll want to shoot myself for having taken these meds, but right now there is so much that needs to be done, I'm willing to risk any repercussions that come from sending myself into a severe manic state. Why yes, I am crazy.