Got me thinking

A post on the borderline board had me thinking earlier. Someone mentioned getting their therapist or pdocs address and showing up at their house, finding out what car was theirs, etc...essentially crossing boundaries. Got me thinking because I've often considered doing that with my pdoc, though I haven't yet crossed that boundary. I think about waiting in the parking lot til he comes out, or hoping I catch him when he arrives so I know which car is his. Want to find his address and see where he lives.

I won't ever do those things, because I don't want to consider myself a stalker or want anyone else to think that of me. I've had those thoughts for many, many years and not just toward mental health professionals, but have never once acted on them. I know it's wrong to invade someone's privacy like that and I wouldn't want someone to do it to me. I just found it weird that another borderline had those same thoughts. Has me wondering if that is a common behaviour among borderlines. If all those stalkers we hear about on the news actually have BPD. I don't think so because I've run across people with obsessions before that had nothing else wrong with them. But I still can't help but wonder.

Speaking of the news...I'd like to once again thank a crazy person and the media for helping to continue to perpetuate the stigma against the mentally ill. I think the only exposure a majority of the people in the world have to mental illness is when some nut job with a gun goes on a shooting rampage and the media sure plays that up. All I've heard about the shooting spree in Brookfield, WI is that the man suffered from depression. Watching CNN earlier all they mentioned is that no one knows why he killed except that he was depressed, they didn't even say anything about the victims. No one ever mentions the millions of others suffering from depression that try and lead productive lives that don't break laws and hurt or kill others. I know we're not as news worthy, but at least balance the picture out. It's one fucking nut job out of millions of people.

And why is it that these fuckers that go postal are almost always men?? I can't think of a single instance where it was a woman that did that, though I'm sure there have been. I'm thinking that it's not so much mental illness driving them to murder but testosterone. There are certainly more men incarcerated. Far more men are serial killers. Think we should start giving them some estrogen.