Crappy, crappier, crappiest

I had a crappy visit with Ms. N today and I almost walked out on her. Had an even crappier ride home because all I could focus on was hurting myself and what I would do when I got home. And I seem to be offering the crappiest advice to others lately. So fuck me for trying to do anything because it all comes back to that proverbial slap in the face. Wish someone would physically abuse me, that would hurt a hell of a lot less.