Friday, July 22, 2005

My fault

Everything is my fault, I realize that now. I'm the reason I'm so miserable and dysfunctional. I'm the reason my marriage fell apart and my ex is struggling. I'm the reason my daughter is so unhappy and struggling right now. How do I make things right? Remove myself from the equation. I don't want to hurt anyone any more. I know the solution. I knew it a long time ago but failed to follow through. I'm done fighting. I won't fail again.

4 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sid,
You can get through this....even if you don't want to....you must for your baby....she will always need you....i am worried for you...please email me....or call me if you need to....my phone number will be in your email...
Take care of you!
Shannin

11:27 PM, July 22, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What happened? Did someone accuse you of those things?
You wouldnt hurt your daughter, certainly not intentionally. Im sure your husbands played a part in some of these things.
Please dont start thinking about ending it, its not a good solution.Not for you or your daughter.
Im sorry your feeling this way, but dont blame yourself,its not your fault. Many people have problems in their marriage and with their kids, thats very comman.
I hope you get to feeling better very soon. Take good care of yourself o.k?

Please cheer up
Billy

12:08 AM, July 23, 2005  
Blogger James said...

Sid,

I found your blog via Bordlin Savvy's blog. I know that I don't know you yet but I just want to encourage you to stay alive for your daughter. I understand the feeling of not wanting to live any longer though. I have been feeling that lately too. Thank god for the support network I have built online and in person. If nothing else stay alive for me so that I can get to know you. Hang in there and see your pdoc for some extra help from meds.

I hope the storm calms down soon. You do not deserve to feel so bad. None us do. We are fighting such a strong monster and we have to stick together so that we can defeat our collective enemy together.

Peace and happiness to you.
-James

2:02 PM, July 23, 2005  
Blogger Polar Bear said...

Hey Sid
You have to hang in there for your daughter. She needs you.

There's no sense putting blame anywhere, Sid. I think you're dealing with things the best you can. I hope you will see some positives in your life that will help you keep going. Your daughter is a big positive in your life.

8:25 PM, July 23, 2005  

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