Another show

The kiddie and I are going to see Sum 41 again. They'll be back in Chicago on June 4th. I'm looking forward to it because their cd Chuck is about the only thing I've been listening to lately. I'll be the old fat ugly redhead singing along with all their songs. What can I say, just cuz I've gotten older doesn't mean I have to stop liking the same kind of music.

Almost 2 am and I'm sitting here eating Starbursts. Probably not a wise idea. As if I need a sugar buzz right now. I'm already wide awake despite having only gotten 4 hours of sleep last night. It's so damn frustrating because I know if I'd just take the Seroquel, I'd be out in no time. I think it's a control issue with me. I can't control what time I fall asleep on the medication, so I refuse to take it until I'm either beyond bored or absolutely need to get to sleep. That allows me some sense of control, even if it is only imaginary in my head. If I were truly in control, I'd quit withholding adequate sleep from myself when I have the aid to do it handy at all times.

The kiddie and I went to see Fever Pitch yesterday. It was a good movie and quite funny. It's been a long time since I was in a theater and the entire audience erupted in laughter. I seem to be laughing more than everyone else around me though. Not louder or anything, just at more parts of the movie. Guess my own interpretation offered more opportunities for laughter. That or the voices in my head were making me laugh at inappropriate times. In any case, we had a good time.

And speaking of Sum 41...here's a song of theirs that I'd add to the soundtrack of my life.

THERE'S NO SOLUTION

maybe nothing else will ever be so clear
or maybe that's only my fear
if just for one day I wish I could disappear
just take me far from here
maybe I'd find out nothing new
maybe I'd end up just like you

there's no solution (no solution)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind?

the constant pressure that keeps hanging over me
it makes me feel so empty
it's more than anything that I could ever be
what else could you take from me
it's getting harder to relate
don't want to make the same mistakes

there's no solution (no solution)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind?

it took me so long to find out
it's right there in front of me
too close to see
what I thought was true
I see right through
what's killing you

there's no solution (I can't see)
give me truth to my conviction
is my own confusion (that I feel)
reality or fiction
am I out of my mind?

so maybe nothing else will be so clear
or maybe that's only my fear (am I out of my mind)
if just for one day I wish I could disappear
just take me far from here (am I out of my mind)